It’s Not What You Think — Discover

“It’s possible that, along with grunge, Generation X’s other great gift to society is depression.” In his tribute to Chris Cornell, Rich Larsen reflects on despair, aging, and his generation’s struggles with mental health.

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They fell…

They fell…

They Fell

What more did you want?

What more could one do?

She gave you her heart

You said she had yours too.

Just as you asked,

she waited for you, 

She still stares at that blue tape 

 and wishes for it to be true.

She thinks of you often

and remembers your lies.

There is no longer a wonder

why the ones before her said their “goodbyes.”

Even still,

she deemed it their loss.

Little did she know,

She would bear her own cross.

She had so many dreams

living together day by day.

She had no idea, 

you weren’t planning to stay.

If she would have known

she still wouldn’t have changed.

she is still waiting,

confused and deranged. 

She’d do whatever she could 

to figure you out.

What did she do?

When did this come about?

She now realizes

there was never a “when.”

Broken dreams and promises

over and over again.

She wasn’t alone,

there were more victims. 

They all fell flat

to your well-oiled system.

You wanted for nothing

because you always got.

By guilting so many

in your grave, you shall rot.

The hearts that you broke,

the souls that you stole; 

without a tear in your eye

you continue to enroll.

Their hearts and minds,

both are your prey

Sleep, what is that?

They think of you night and day.

Of all those you fractured

and souls that you stole,

Be rest assured

For her, there is no console?

It’s been said, “Karma’s a bitch.”

She hopes that it’s true.

Pain, torture and hurt, 

She wishes upon you.

You played her a fool

for believing your lies.

She is now aware,

You’ve lost your mask and disguise.

What was your goal?

It can’t be that simple.

For all those you used, 

and for those that you cripple.

She writes this poem

to take their stand

against you and your arrogant 

thunderous hand.

If ever you see

how much you hurt her, 

She’ll be waiting as promised 

and proceed as you were.

Not everyone’s your enemy,

and she truly does love

the few special moments

sent from above.

She’ll remember those times 

for the rest of her life, 

yet she still hopes you feel

Karma’s sweet knife.

When I Give…..

When I give, it does not come with strings. I’m not keeping track of what you owe me. When I give, I choose to do so without ulterior motives. I give because I’m genuine. I give because I know what it’s like to be without, to long for and be ignored, to speak and not…

via Don’t take me for granted. — Lessons Learned in Life

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Insecurity

A whirlwind of pity,
a loss of pride,
Extreme insecurity,
bound to my side.

A mountain of emotion,
a puddle of hope,
fear entwined,
no way to cope.

A complete disaster,
impossible to fix,
love and hate,
an impressible mix.

Remarkable outcome,
unspoken words,
actions shout,
no sound heard.

It’s a New Year, Mom…

It’s a New Year, Mom…

Happy Frigg’n New Year Mom,

This past year, 2016, is now over and 2017 is upon us. I can truly say that I am not sad to see the end of that year. It was one of those years where the negative events certainly outweighed the positive ones. I pray 2017 is more willing to bestow happier times upon our family than 2016 offered. One of the more meaningful events 2016 offered was the continued and now much stronger relationship we have with Elizabeth. I would love it if she lived closer, but she is doing very well where she is living and I’m so proud of her! She is the beautiful, intelligent and independent young girl I always knew she would be but never knew for sure if I would get the opportunity to be any part of watching her growth. It took many years of waiting, crying, and praying but it happened, Mom. Finally! Beth is back and now that we have been able to revive our relationship with her, I’m never letting her go ever again!

This past year, 2016, is now over and 2017 is upon us. I can truly say that I am not sad to see the end of that year. It was one of those years where the negative events certainly outweighed the positive ones. I pray 2017 is more willing to bestow happier times upon our family than 2016 offered. One of the more meaningful events 2016 offered was the continued and now much stronger relationship we have with Elizabeth. I would love it if she lived closer, but she is doing very well where she is living and I’m so proud of her! She is the beautiful, intelligent and independent young girl I always knew she would be but never knew for sure if I would get the opportunity to be any part of watching her growth. It took many years of waiting, crying, and praying but it happened, Mom. Finally! Beth is back and now that we have been able to revive our relationship with her, I’m never letting her go ever again! 

Milestones were met this year with Nick turning 18 and Isaiah turning 16. Both of them still have their individual struggles but all I can do is my best. Thankfully, I’m not in this alone because I have been blessed with Michael to help raise the boys to not only the best of my ability but to the best of OUR abilities! We will lead them to the water, however, as I’ve told you many times, lol, we can’t make them drink. They know they will sink in order to swim if need be. I certainly hope they do not call our bluff because doing so will be a huge mistake on their behalf. “Calling my bluff” in particular isn’t the way to go about gaining favor with me. I certainly hope they know that by now and do not choose to put me in the position where I will have to stand my ground and “be the bad guy.” Hell, I’m used to it,… I believe it is only in their best interest to not enable them. Enabling poor behavior or a lack of responsibility will only be a greater disservice to them as they proceed with their futures. So, I’m certainly praying Nick (because he will be faced with choices this June upon graduation that will impact his future greatly) does what he needs to do in order to become the man we’ve raised him to be. If that is going to happen, he has a lot of work to do between now and then. He has the knowledge, it’s up to him to apply it.

All of Michael’s hard work and dedication over the years has finally paid off career-wise. He fought and clawed his way through multiple interviews and tests and landed an awesome job that reduces his driving time to work over an hour a day and in addition rewards him with quite a remarkable starting salary rate! It’s a blessing to know that he is committed to supporting his family.

There were multiple losses of loved ones and many relationships ended in 2016 as well. Regardless of the reason, it is sad when there just is not a means of reconciliation because each party believes that they are acting in their own best interest and in some cases in the best interest of the other party as well. For the most part, I would say most separations, in my opinion, have been justified; however, the severed relationships over the election results are ones that I believe are senseless. But that is obviously just my opinion. The result of Donald J. Trump becoming the 45th President of the United States of America are finalized. Whether you agree or disagree doesn’t matter at this point. It is what it is, period. So united, rather than divided, our country should work together to rebuild America and at least earn the respect back from other nations that think America is nothing more than a big joke. But, this is a typical example of when I believe people should agree to disagree for the common good. Unfortunately, that wasn’t possible for many! In conclusion, I’m staying optimistic about 2017 but I’m also a realist. I have some goals set that I plan to reach but you know me; I’ll always be waiting for the next shoe to drop. I hope you are resting well, Mom! Give Genesis my love and I’ll be seeing ya!

All My Love,

♥Sherri♥

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“Your Name”-poem to begin….

Once I called upon your name,
I heard your voice, it wasn’t the same.

I called your name in days of past,
I heard your voice, it wouldn’t last.

One more time I called your name,
I heard no voice and I’m to blame.

If in the future I call your name,
do not answer, for I’ve gone insane.